7.3 Scaredy Chops

Dear diary,  I'm so excited about being in Plastic Jr! squad.  I also feel a bit guilty for betraying HAM but I had to fit in with the Plastics Jr! 

It all started when the Mom, Dad and Granny took HAM and I to a theme park  during the summer and HAM and I rode the Ferris wheel and some other kids' ride but I really wanted to go on the rollercoaster but HAM and my parents didn't.    Madeline and Charlene two of the Plastic Jr girls  came over and said I could go with them on the roller coaster.  So I did 

  I been wanting to go on this ride for YEARS but no one in my family ever wanted to go on it with me  And the Guion family didn't have enough money to go to the theme park so they couldn't go on the ride either.   They refused to let my family pay for the Guion childrens' trip to the theme park. they're too proud. 

But right then I thought I might have new friends that would ride thrill rides with me. 

And I was even more thrilled when i heard that the Plastic Jr could go everywhere on our own.  HAM and I might look like ordinary girls but in reality there's body guards everywhere.  Expect for you know the one time that HAM snuck off and almost got kidnapped. I had to do a Simba and Nala to throw off the bodyguard when I went to rescue her.   

I'm so happy my name isn't spelled Jane Oliva Grace or else the girls would probably bully me too because my name would spell "Jog" 

On the third day of school after school started in the fall  Madeline,  Charlene and Susana  started calling  HAM a "chicken"  

A month later   they're at it again  "Scaredy cat!"  "Chicken"     Then something I couldn't believe came out of my mouth and it was "Chicken how about Scaredy chops? You know because Pork sometimes make pork Chops"  

Dan overheard what I had said and when we got home told Granny Elizabeth and Granny calmly told me off for breaking my promise to her.   And I just waved her off. 

We called her  "chicken"  "Scaredy Cat"  and then called her "Pock chops" every time we saw her which was like every day.  

A couple of days later  Plastics Jr- which I was turning into one as well- said the next day I have 

to actually physically bully  HAM in order to be fully integrated into the group.  I wasn't very hungry for supper so I went to bed early 

I had this weird dream I was outside this dark house and I was much older and was wearing some old Victorian clothing 

I went into the house and was greeted by this strange creature. I heard rumours in town that he had visited my ancestor Clarissa to warn her that "all magic comes with a price" before she did some kind of spell that resulted in her  making the Swanson Legacy. 

He introduced himself as  Rumpelstiltskin and  we talked a bit about how he had actually visted my ancestor Clarrisa and also once called my triple great grandaunt Carly  to him in a dream Carly was having to give  her a warning like the one he was to give me shortly 

"Are you sure you want to continue down this path of being a Mean Girl,  just to be cool and to  fit in?  Like with magic it might come with a price you regret latter"   I replied "Yes, I'm sure I want to go down that path. " 

He tried talking me out of it a bit more and I didn't listen to him so  he said "There's some people in the other room whom you might want to talk too since you might listen to them if you don't listen to me." 

I went into the next room and I meet both Regina and Emma Swans from OUAT (Once Upon a Time)..  Rumpelstiltskin is also from OUAT show.

Regina told me herself  "Rumpelstiltskin is right, turning down the path of badness even the ones of Mean Girls might have something you will pay dearly for when the time comes to collect." 

I  brushed her off too "Come on, what price would 

come from me being a Mean Girl for a short while? I'm going to have to be ruling Windenburg after I get married when I'm older" 

Regina replied "My boyfriend died because of my step-daughter to be  Snow White and because of that I want down the path of Darkness and the last Evil thing I did was to basically kill my father to be able to "win" aganist her and to bring Emma's parents, myself and a bunch of others to the Land without Magic.  You know SimEarth"

Emma said "I was half the Dark One for awhile to try to save Hook from turning into a Dark as Dark One as  Rumple." 

I said "But didn't you have to prevent Hook from knowing that he was immortal and due to Rumple's interfering you had to go rescue him from Hades?"

And then I added "but the actions Rumple, you did, Regina and you Emma- all resulted in all the Storybook kingdoms or realms ending up being a sort of Disney land hiding in the woods in Maine known as the United Realm-so that its not all that bad is it?" 

Emma and Regina then basically said "We give up  but if you change your mind we're here to talk some more"

A child version of their son  (Emma's biological son but Regina's adoptive son  whom is also her step-great grandson -yeah I know it's complicated and it doesn't help the guy in the other room is his paternal grandfather) comes into the room and says "We all have good and darkness inside of us but we also have family whom believe in us."

After that, I woke up to start my day

I went to school with HAM and during lunch time when HAM, the girls and I were in the hallway pushed HAM down and told her that "You're  not my sister and You're not my twin.. and  you're  a scaredy chops""

And the girls applauded me 

HAM POV:  

Now even my twin sister is no longer on my side but to be truthful she hasn't been for awhile, due to me being to chicken to ride that rollercoaster but she KNOWS I throw up if I do stuff like that but it doesn't matter about that 

But this is the last straw she told me "I wasn't her twin" and "I wasn't her sister" and called me a "coward" and a "scaredy chops"   when she was pushing me down to fit in with the "girls" 

And Dan's no use currently because there's talk about sending him into miltary law school once we're teenagers because he technically has nu future in Windenburg as at least a Duke unless he chooses a lesser title when we're older 

6.3 Drunk

 

Dear Diary I'm really wish my parents will tell me something.  They been hiding something from me.  Even Grandma whom I love dearly is hiding something  I think it might be something dark because Mom been drinking a lot of what they call  " adult juice" which they don't share with me.  I can tell that Grandma is a bit concerned about it but I'm not sure why?

I'm been seeing Mom having a lot of "adult juice" drinks for awhile. I'm not sure what the problem is? But its really annoying my father that they had gotten into arguments about her drinking problem.  But she refuses to listen 

I also been having this werid dream about something. I think she might be a twin of mine? And she's in a really bad place.  I think there's only one person whom is nice to her a brown hair girl wearing a green shirt. I think the Green shirt girl gave the other girl candy. 

When I asked my Mom if I had a twin they weren't telling me about. Mom just lost her temper with me "DON'T TALK NONSE, YOU DON'T HAVE A TWIN, AND NEVER SPEAK ABOUT IN, IN THIS HOUSE AGAIN DO YOU UNDERSTAND?"  And when I left to hug Grandma  She had several more drinks, apparently, I upset Mom a lot 

And because of that the parents got into ANOTHER argument with each other because of the drinking.  Which made Mom have three more drinks which made her vomit on the floor.  

Which made her drink even more and she refused to listen to Grandma (her Mom) telling her that she should go to Rehab like Grandma tried to do around the time she divorced my Grandpa Wyatt   That conversation just made Mom drink more and vomit again. 

Then Grandma and Mom got into a fight. Grandma was telling her that Mom really should go to rehab since it would do her good.   Mom said "NO, I AM FINE, I DON'T NEED ANY STINKING REHAB!" only for a second later for her to vomit again. 

I had the same dream as before  This time I noticed that the girl in a bad place had a very weird scar on her face. 

The next day I asked Mom if my twin had a birthmark and Mom yelled at me again "DON'T TALK NONESENE YOU DON'T HAVE A TWIN REMEMBER? AND EVEN IF YOU DID SHE WOULDN'T HAVE SUCH A WERID BIRTHMARK!:"   She left a wine glass near the comptuer before she vomited another time. 

When Dad came home I asked him about the twin since Mom wasn't answering my questions and he just said like Mom  that "I don't have a twin and not to speak of this nonsense outside of the house".  But at least he wasn't yelling at me like Mom was.    But he did go and yell at Mom for drinking more.  

I then asked my Grandma if she knew about something my parents weren't telling me.  She said "I wish I could, but I can't not until you're old enough to know "    I said "BUT YOU MIGHT BE DEAD BY THEN GRANDMA!"  

Then Grandma had another argument with Mom about her drinking but this time she DID convince Mom to go to the rehab.  But Mom has only gone to one session and she hated it and just went straight back to drinking when she came back home much to Grandma's dismay.