7.12 Hoildays

Dear diary I'm very sad because I had the first Chirstmas with Henry because he's Missing in Action (presumed dead). And in letters we had sent to each other prior to the MIA letter  he had promised to be home for Christmas and to spend it with my family and I was suppose to spend NYE's with his family.  

HAM and I came hoem from the hoildays (one of Henry's sisters is staying at the apartment for us).  The triplets, HAM and I and eventally our Mother got the tree ready for the Olaffest

Before the triplets went to bed that night Dad asked me how "How are you doing Jane?"  I replied back saying "I'm fine."  but its was a lie.  I think took the dog for a walk

During the day before the family got the tree ready for Olaffesr HAM and Maxwell together which I was a bit jealous of.  If Herny had been home the four of us could have double dated.

Several Days later it was Olaffest early in the morning Mom got the meal ready for that night.

Then we all started to open up presents. 

But that made me really upset because I had started to day dream about the future that I fear will never be now. Of Christmas with our own children in that home my family had for awhile now.

I went to HAM'S room and  she followed me to make sure I was okay

I told her about how i just was sad because Henry wasn't there and will never be. 

Mom pulled Dad outside to ask him what was up with me.   Dad said "She's still upset about her boyfriend missing and probably dead."

I faked being able to you know being jolly and we had beautiful supper.

The kids played with their new toys

The next day the triplets had a snow ball fight and HAM  and one of the tripets build a snowman (the other two also built a snow man as well)

Two weeks later it was time for NEW YEARS EVE! I didn't spend it with Henry's family because it would be awkward with only four people there and no Henry.